Life lately #2

a random photo of books on the shelf
when I visited the newly opened bookstore near my workplace. 

We all know how this pandemic affected our lives, especially our mental health. So, it's really important for me to self-check every now and then, to track my health, from emotional, mental to physical health. I remember when the Quarantine Lockdown last March was implemented, I was partly glad?? cos I thought it's finally a chance for me to work from home, yet I still continue to go to work despite the lockdown, because of the nature of my job which is one of the essentials and I needed to monitor the daily operations. (It was a frustrating experience for me that I even cried while walking because there was no mode of transportation and I needed to go to work.)

It was difficult to stay sane during those times, and even until now. I'm thankful for my family for looking after me, they made sure I always ate and sanitized. Although, my introvert self kind of adjusted well to the new normal, there's a part of me that's still struggling to keep up. 

In the past months, I try to practice mindfulness, living in the moment, because we all know that everything is on paused right now, most of our plans for this year are on hold, that's what I'm currently feeling. I try not to think much about what's going to happen in the incoming months because it'll just stress me out. 

I went back to my hobbies, reading a lot of stories on Wattpad, I ordered three books online that I haven't read yet, so, my to be read list just keep on piling up. I feel bad, I'm currently on a reading slump, and I'm slowly overcoming it. 

I continue writing and doodling on my journal, however since the Quarantine happened there's nothing really going on with my life right now. I don't have anything interesting to jot down on my journal cos most of the time I'm just at home, or I'm at work. I usually just list down my feelings and food that I ate. 

Speaking of tracking my food intake, I gained one kilo, and I'm so happy. I used to skip breakfast and I tend to forget to eat when I get so busy, and I told myself that I need to achieve the required weight for my body and height, which is my goal for this year. I lost over 5 kgs since last year and it's bothersome, cos we are not getting younger so I wanted to take care of my body. I don't want to get sick. Most of my expenses go to the food category, and I don't feel bad about it. 

I bought some art materials, Making art is therapeutic for me even though I have average skills still it makes me happy and relaxed so I'll continue to make art, I also wanted to improve it cos I realized that I'm not good with colors since I'm used to drawing using black pen ink only, I suck at using colors guys. That's why I decided to buy a new watercolor set and gouache paint! (I found this gouache paint set online that's perfect for beginners, it's called himi miya!) I wanted to learn how to properly used and mix colors together, hehe. oh yeah, I'll be buying an Ipad soon to try making illustrations and digital art. 

I'm still taking videos for my youtube channel. It was my goal to upload more often on my channel but it didn't happen. So, hopefully, I'll be able to upload my monthly vlogs by September, I just started editing my January to March vlog. I still have a long way to go!!!!! 

The fanfiction that I wrote on Wattpad reached over 1k reads, and I'm surprised that there are people out there who actually read it even though it takes months before I update it. It's always been a dream of mine to create stories and share them online way back high school, I once did it however I ended up abandoning it because I never get satisfied with it. Hopefully, I finally get to finish one, and post more! 

Lastly, I have been in hermit mode the past weeks, I've been ignoring messages and people (I'm sorry friends!!! I promise I'll be back up soon!!) intentionally because I feel so drained despite the fact that I didn't do much work. and oh, My skin has been breaking out, and yeah, my self-esteem is pretty much going downhill again. Still, I'm very much grateful for being healthy, and for making up to this far. We're four months away until we say goodbye to 2020 and It feels strange. 

Please, always take care of your health! Stay safe, folks!